I just bought a car!!!Or...someone helped me get a car. either way, Im happy. All thanks to the universe.
Take care
Its been some time since i wrote down my thoughts, its taken me sometime to realise my live isn't going (me) straight anymore. Im not even sure what I mean by that myself, but I guess its being clear about your live and where your heading it to. For some reason, I just stopped. I stopped being me. I stopped wanting to write, I stopped wanting a better job, I stopped wanting to take up better and positive habits, I stopped creaving to be the best at what I do, I just stopped. Maybe i thought it was enough, too much work, or better to pretend lives good. I mean, it wasn't all craziness when I stopped doing whatever I was doing, that is until it lead me to feeling so frightened, insecure and lost. There was no passion anymore, I was just going through motions, moving with whatever was moving.
Now I realise how much I miss that person. she wasn't perfect, but she was determined, persevered and got the new me to the place she is right now. But when this new me got to this new place, she forgot how to make time for the important little things that kept her going, reading, prayer, silence, humbleness, creativity, love and minding my own business. Actually i didnt forget, maybe i just didnt deem it that important anymore, its funny how when dreams start coming true, we tend to forget what we wanted to do with them, instead we start doing with them, what everybody else things should be. Then it no longer is the dream, just the shadow of it all, it looks almost like it, but not really.
Its sad, but as i go into silence and humble myself before the universe i pray that we are all enlightened in how to be thankful for being here and the wisdom to tell the difference between the ego and our true selves.
Thank you
